So maybe I will write today. So much to say. I dont even know were to start. My bf up and left me last night out of nowere. He asked me around 7 if he could go visit his friend so I said yes. He comes home around 11:30 walks into my room and says I have to go. Go were i asked him and just just states that he has to leave. So he packs his stuff and he leaves. I dont know why it just kinda jumpted out at me. We didnt fight or argue and we got along great. It was too good to be true. I cant beleive that someone can just do that to someone.
 


I have some things to say to you tho PAT. I will ever say them to your face because its just not worth it. I HATE you for leaving me at christmas. I HATE you for leading me on. I HATE that you let me spend all that money on your childrens christmas presents. I HATE that you started  tattoo on me that you will never finish. Thanks alot for nothing. I didnt do anything to you. Do you feel like a big man now that you just walked away from a young mother and baby that grew to love you and call you DADDY. I hate that he bonded with you. I told you I didnt want her to call you DADDY. You wanted her to. You made her call you DADDY. You said you would marry me. you promised that if things got bad (which they didnt) that we would talk about it so that this wouldnt happen. You promised me forever and that was another promise that you broke. What has you running away so fast. Did i say something? Did I do something? Or did I l LOVE you so much that I scared you away. We were perfect together. I did for you things i never did for anyother. You made LOVE to me the night befor like there was nothing wrong. You lied to me when you told me you LOVEd me befor you went to your friends house. I HATE your for this but in my heart I LOVE you beause you were different. You didnt treat me like a peice of garbage. You are such a truly wonderful guy you were amazing. I LOVEd you like I couldnt love another. But you just walked away with out a reason. You couldnt even look me in the eyes and tell me you didnt want to be with me when i askd you if that was the case. I eventuly had to pull it out of you and you cried. You cried when you told me you didnt want me anymore forseing thows words out of your mouth becasue it was what i wanted to hear. So if thats not the case why did you leave?